Monday, March 12, 2012

How To Fight The Doubt Monster

After living through many emotion-draining months, and finally burning out, I pulled myself together and got back to writing. Only now I find myself facing the doubt monster. You know the ugly, hairy, big-tooth beast, who creeps up on you when you find yourself staring at a blank page, after a break from writing, and whispers in your ear, "You haven't written anything in weeks! You know you've lost your talent, don’t you? Don’t even bother to write anything today, you’ll only have to rewrite the whole thing anyway. Wait until you get it perfect in your mind!" Or words to that effect.

The only sure weapon I know to use when I need to smack the doubt monster over the head and send him on his way, is to refresh my mind with the craft of writing.  

We can never know too much about the writing craft, and I try to take time out several times per year to learn new writing skills and reinforce what I already know.

The past few days I've been doing just that. I've learned some amazing techniques which I can't wait to use. One of them is a way to increase my writing speed--which I'm dying to try out! :)

If you follow this blog, you'll know one of my great desires is to be among those authors who can write 2,000+ words per hour. This new method promises me the opportunity to do so.

I need to tweak the method a little so it fits me. If it works, I'll blog and share the method with you.

Meanwhile, I'd love for you to share your process of getting rid of the doubt monster.

Do you ever take hits from this negative emotion? How do you get rid of doubt? Does it affect your writing when it attacks?


Tuesday, February 21, 2012

Good To Be Back

After almost three months off, I finally returned to work yesterday! I'm a full-time author, so when I say work, I mean writing. The last couple of years has been hijacked when my little girl was diagnosed with Leukaemia in 2009. I'm happy to report that, despite the huge hiccup with her developing pneumonia in December and then spending two months in hospital, she is now finally finished treatment! Praise the Lord!

We no longer have a child with the C-word or the L-word. No, we have a little nine-year-old who can look forward to a normal life again. She'll be monitored until she's sixteen but at least she has her life back. At the moment, she is still getting over her final Lumbar Puncture and Bone Marrow tests and the last little bit of antibiotics but, Hello, Life! Here we come!

Just before Meg was diagnosed, I was well on my way to concentrating on my writing career. Needless to say that the last two and a bit years has sidelined me a bit.

Like I said, I started back yesterday and fully intend to get some new books out into the market ASAP. I don't think it would come as a surprise that I have decided to go Indie--why wouldn't I, right? It seems like the smart thing to do since clearly I will never crack the HMB market. My last attempt got rejected for the same as the others--too much external conflict.

I guess I don't know how to write a book without too much external conflict, so I'll simply write my books knowing that I can't be the only reader who likes external conflict. Therefore I must have readers out there waiting for my books to entertain them :o).

So this is me, Monique DeVere, back and ready to tackle the publishing world. I can't wait to share my books with you!  

Wednesday, February 15, 2012

Author Stacy Verdick Case

It gives me great pleasure to welcome Stacy Verdick Case here to day. Thank you for dropping by on your blog tour to entertain us, Stacy. I wish you huge success with you book sales. You can purchase Stacy's book entitled A Grand Murder here.



Step Outside In The Name of Research 

When a friend of mine approached me with an opportunity to participate in a six-week citizens police academy, it wasn’t something I jumped at right away. Writers by nature tend to be introverted, so this experience would be outside my comfort zone.
My friend, also a writer, convinced me this experience would give me access to areas in the police department I wouldn’t normally see, including the evidence locker and the 911 dispatch center. More importantly, I would be able to cultivate valuable contacts who know I’m a writer and are happy to answer creepy mystery writer questions. So after much cajoling, I agreed.
Now, I believe there is no substitute for meeting people in the jobs you’re writing about. You pick up character traits you wouldn’t expect that can give your characters depth, and insights, you could never get anywhere else.
At the end of the six week training, each person was able to participate in a ride along. The whole night was pretty uneventful, but I was able to ask the officer a lot of questions, so it wasn’t a total loss. Then fifteen minutes before the end of our shift we got a call. A woman had been raped at gun point, and the man who did it was threatening to shoot anyone who came to the door.  We were one of the first two cars on the scene.  After a few minutes of discussion, the officers decided they were going in to get the guy.
This wasn’t unexpected. After all, this is what these officers do for a living. It’s their job to put themselves between us, and the people who would harm us. What was unexpected was that in the middle of this intense situation both of these big, strong men took a few minutes before going in to call home. I can’t speak to what the officer in the other car said, but the officer I was with called his wife. The conversation was mundane. He asked if she’d remembered to give the dog its pills, if the kids had a good day at school, and he ended the conversation by saying he would be late tonight and said, “I love you,” to his wife.
I realized he was saying good-bye, just in case, without saying the words. I’m betting that, on some level, she knew what the call meant too.
When he left the car, I cried. Not just because I was afraid that these two officers were going to be shot, but because of the call. It was the first time I thought about being the spouse of a police officer and what everyday must be like. That made me intensify the conflict between my lead character Catherine and her husband Gavin, who initially had a very small part in the book.
Luckily, the standoff ended anti-climactically, and neither the  officers, nor the suspect were injured. He simply answered the door, acknowledge what he’d done, and surrendered.
This man who had caused so much pain was brought to sit the back of a squad car in hand cuffs. I sat in a car across from him. I expected to see pure evil, because that what we want to see in our villains. Instead, there was a man in his seventies, who had never had a run in with the law in his whole life, not even a speeding ticket. He was somebody’s father, and grandfather. His eyes were sad and scared.
This unsettled me.
I don’t want to share the full details of what had happened, because this is someone’s life I am writing about, and if his victim reads this I don’t want there to be any identifying markers. It is sufficient to say that, in this man’s mind, he had developed a belief that the woman he raped had feelings for him, and he believed it.
That’s when I realized I had to rewrite my story. I was writing killers who were just evil for the sake of my story.
I’ve heard it said many times, that everyone is the hero of their own story, but I never took it to heart before that night. I went home, and rewrote A Grand Murder, so that the killer believes they are doing what is best by committing murder. The character is now more believable than in the first draft, and I believe more sympathetic.
There are many valuable facts that mystery writers can learn from research books, but an education like the one I had that night, is priceless and can’t be found in a book. For all authors, I implore you to step outside your comfort zone in the name of research, and touch the people you are writing about. You might find the unexpected that gives your writing greater depth. 

Stacy Verdick Case is the author of A Grand Murder the first book in the Catherine O’Brien mystery series. Visit Stacy on the web at www.StacyVerdickCase.com and view her blog at sostacythought.wordpress.com


Wednesday, January 25, 2012

So Near And Yet So Far!

Have you ever felt the devil is out to get you?

I have to say I've been under this impression for some time now. Talk about distractions and discouragements.

At the end of December I decided that since Meg's chemotherapy was scheduled to finish at the end of this month I would get January out of the way then work till I sweat to get stories and scripts out this year. Then Meg caught a cold in December which weakened her already weak immune system and she ended up in hospital with Pneumocystis Carinii pneumonia. We only just got out of hospital.

Praise God she's almost back to normal, but for a few weeks things got a little scary.

Now I find I've lost all of the enthusiasm I started the new year with and I'm left wondering if life will ever be as I once knew it.

If that sounds depressing that's because it's the way I feel. I just want to scream and cry and rant and rave and curse. But instead I'm focusing my energy on God while I diligently read my bible because it's where I find my strength.

Megyn's last monthly chemo is now rescheduled for tomorrow. After that, two weeks of daily at home chemo will follow. Then she gets her final bone marrow and lumbar puncture, signalling the end of two and a bit years on this journey.

It's been an emotional roller-coaster story. One I prayer this family, in all the generations to come, NEVER has to live through again!

Thanks for spending time with me here on the blog. With the help of God, I'll be back to blogging about something other than my woes very soon.

Until next time may God's love and blessings be with you!

Monday, December 12, 2011

Just Getting Out The Duster

I can see cobwebs growing over the door and in all the corners of my blog! So I thought I'd get out the duster and do a little dusting.

It's been a hard two and a bit years where I saw my world come to a horrifying standstill. On one hand, it feels as though Meg was diagnosed with Leukaemia only yesterday, and on the other, it feels like a lifetime ago. I guess you can say it's been a lifetime. Everything--life!--as we knew it imploded that October just over two years ago.

And now finally we are at the end. In approximately eight weeks Meg is scheduled to finish her chemotherapy, praise God! Sure, we have a whole heap of other hurdles to leap over, but it's a small price to pay for her well-being.

With the end so close, I find myself looking to the New Year with quiet anticipation and a whole lot of trepidation. Will I ever get back into the swing of writing again? It's been so long since we've been able to plan ahead I've forgotten what it feels like to make plans and be sure I'll be able to follow them through.

I'm looking at Indie publishing, but so far I've been deterred by my absolute lack of time to market and promote my work. Perhaps with the New Year I'll have a better view on that option. But then I've had quite a few ideas for films and TV series. I think I'd like to spend some time exploring that area of my arsenal. To tell you the truth, I think I'll be far better suited to screenwriting than novel writing since I much prefer the idea of quietly writing in an area where I don't have to worry about spending hours each day marketing but instead can spend my days writing. As a screenwriter no one needs to know who you are in order for people to go to see your movies.

I really like the anonymity of screenwriting. But I guess I'll see once the New Year blossoms.

I hope all of you know where you're going and that you get there without too many stumbling blocks.

In case I don't get around to dusting the place before the New Year, I pray you have a very Happy Christmas, Chanukah (Hanukkah), Happy New Year!

God bless!