Wednesday, January 25, 2012

So Near And Yet So Far!

Have you ever felt the devil is out to get you?

I have to say I've been under this impression for some time now. Talk about distractions and discouragements.

At the end of December I decided that since Meg's chemotherapy was scheduled to finish at the end of this month I would get January out of the way then work till I sweat to get stories and scripts out this year. Then Meg caught a cold in December which weakened her already weak immune system and she ended up in hospital with Pneumocystis Carinii pneumonia. We only just got out of hospital.

Praise God she's almost back to normal, but for a few weeks things got a little scary.

Now I find I've lost all of the enthusiasm I started the new year with and I'm left wondering if life will ever be as I once knew it.

If that sounds depressing that's because it's the way I feel. I just want to scream and cry and rant and rave and curse. But instead I'm focusing my energy on God while I diligently read my bible because it's where I find my strength.

Megyn's last monthly chemo is now rescheduled for tomorrow. After that, two weeks of daily at home chemo will follow. Then she gets her final bone marrow and lumbar puncture, signalling the end of two and a bit years on this journey.

It's been an emotional roller-coaster story. One I prayer this family, in all the generations to come, NEVER has to live through again!

Thanks for spending time with me here on the blog. With the help of God, I'll be back to blogging about something other than my woes very soon.

Until next time may God's love and blessings be with you!